Leaving Tonight

This song is probably about a relationship ''You fooled me from the start When you let me start to love you'' I kinda points that way, but there's also another meaning - at least to me.

To me, this song is about suicide. It's very obvious with the chorus: ''I'm leaving tonight, I'll be gone in the morning'' But also in the rest of the lyrics.

''It's like a bunch of broken picture frames But the photo still remains the same'' Maybe feeling like a broken person, but you're just kinda still there? I mean, you breathe, your heart beats and you live, but you're suffocating, you can't feel anything, and you're not really alive.

''And I, I thought it'd be easy to run But my legs are broken.'' When you don't have problems or issues, they don't feel like such a big threat, and you feel like you're a strong person, capable of solving your problems. But when you're not alright, when you discover your legs to be broken (or your faith or hope) you can't really run or do anything? Or, when I was little, I had the idea that I would always be able to just move or have a break from my problems or the things haunting me. But when it isn't other people anymore that's the problem, it's impossible to run away from.

''All alone All we know Is haunting me Making it harder to breathe, harder to breathe'' Everything crashing down, making you feel unable to breathe, like you're suffocating. It overwhelms you, especially if you're all alone.

''And I, I figured it all to be love But this isn't lovely'' Life doesn't seem hard, and it's supposed to be good - sometimes hard - but great and beautiful. Sometimes it's just hard. It should be lovely to be alive - what a privilege! - but this is not lovely at all.

''I'm leaving tonight, I'll be gone in the morning''

• I'm committing suicide tonight and I'll be gone tomorrow. Life should be lovely, but it isn't lovely, I'm a broken person still alive and I can't breathe any more.

Personally to me, this song is about suicide. "You fooled me from the start When you let me start to love you" As in he started to love life but he then realized that life isn't as beautiful as he thought it would be.

"And I, I thought it'd be easy to run But my legs are broken." The thought that he could escape the bad things in life, but then realized its kinda impossible to escape it.

"All alone All we know Is haunting me Making it harder to breathe, harder to breathe" Life is getting harder and all the problems are getting worst and worst that he feels no escape.

"Oh I'm leaving tonight x 5 I'll be gone in the morning" I mean this is kinda obvious but he says that this is it. tonight he suicides and by tomorrow he'll be gone.

" I saw it from afar But my eyes have always fooled me" He saw that his problems wouldn't get better but his thoughts told him the other, that it will get better.

"It looked to me like all the sidewalks started walking" No matter how many problems he overcame, it would just keep going and going.

"I swear to god the voices wouldn't shut up" Al the things he's going through are starting to torment him and he can't find peace

"And I, I figured it all to be love But this isn't lovely" He thought that everything he's going through is something that will bring good to him but he realized it wont bring anything good at the end.

~ IDK THO. THIS IS MY INTERPERTATION~

First stanza- The situation was broken from the start, but he looked past the brokenness, and thought things could go well.

Bridge- He thought he would be able to chase his dreams but he didn't realize it would be impossible.

Chorus- He realizes how truly alone he is. The absence of knowledge in the world is haunting his mind, he doesn't know what the meaning of life is, much less the meaning of HIS life, he doesn't know what comes after life, he doesn't know if what he does while alive will mean anything when he dies. He is hopelessly confused about everything and just wants to be done with everything. "Harder to breath" means he is having anxiety and has to take slow deep breaths. He repeats "I'm leaving tonight" in attempts to convince himself that there is no other option and he Must "leave tonight". He repeats it in agony of how dreadful it sounds but still knows it is the best thing for him.

Verse 2- when he saw the girl from afar, she was the most beautiful thing he’d ever seen and while he stood gazing at her in a trance he didn't even realize he was walking toward her, he couldn’t feel his legs moving, and he later remembers it as the sidewalk under his feet started moving in her direction, this also could symbolize that life brought them together and it was inevitable, it was what life had planned for him.
Alternative meaning- He is contemplating suicide and feels the sidewalk underneath him is moving toward suicide, almost like he has no possible other option, and everything in his life has been leading toward his death. The voices wont shut-up telling him he needs to die. He says "wouldn't" because this actually happened, the singer Jesse Rutherford has once attempted shooting himself in the head and survived, He made a post on Tumblr about it and said that If you're going to attempt suicide by gun, put the gun in your mouth, not at your temple, that way you can't survive.

"And I, I figured it all to be love But this isn't lovely"

The girl he is obsessed with, he figured it was love at first, but then realizes this is far from lovely, this is not about her, this is about him, his sick world view, he is deranged and needs serious help. Alternative meaning- He thought the world would be a nice place, it wasn't.