A Great Big Hole

I awoke stinking like a dead man does with time,
not just from the waste I've strewn around the room.
My will resigned, then I let it take to me like vines.
I've got explaining to do
and a greenish hue.
It's a cold I'll always have,
And, god, could I use a sneeze.
But the Kleenex Corporation
has long lost all its sympathy.
To get this low
I had to dig a great big hole
Now, the only way out,
cost me everything I know.
This wasn't supposed to be part of the arc of the story.
I've learned that spilling your guts will not, in every case, lead to glory.
Stubborn as a mule in quicksand, you'll drown
With every two steps forward comes two steps down.
This was bound to unravel, that thread just needed a tug
Cause only so much mess can be swept under a rug
Between my "was"es and "am"s, I think I'd still choose the latter
But seriously, speaking of which, just what the hell did I do with that ladder?
I'm a boxer on the ground
not sure if I should just stay down.
I've been here a while, it's not lost on me
that the seats have emptied,
and there's no referee,
but I swear I still hear a few people rooting for me.
To get this low
I had to dig a great big hole
Now, the only way out,
cost me everything I know.
I could not lead with such a wound neglected
So my comrades, they've all defected/
Now the loss of troops, plus the ground to boot,
leaves me just time to kill and trench to fill.
I'm all dried out.
My mind's grown fit.
I've figured out how to live like this.
Fifteen elephants sitting on my chest
don't feel like much when I'm breathing my best.
To get this low
I had to dig a great big hole
Now, the only way out,
cost me everything I know.