The song lyrics were written by the band Van Halen, as they were asked to write a song for the 1979 movie "Over the Edge" starring Matt Dillon. The movie (and the lyrics, although more obliquely) are about bored, rebellious youth with nothing better to do than get into trouble. If you see the movie, these lyrics will make more sense. It's a great movie if you grew up in the 70s/80s you'll definitely remember some of these characters from your own life. Fun fact, after writing the song, Van Halen decided not to let the movie use it.
First time i saw you,
My heart skipped a beat
First time i held your hand,
I shaked like a leaf
It didn't have to come to this, if you had just leaved it alone
I never wanted you to see what i've kept inside of me
There is a darkness inside of me, eating on me from within.
I never thought i would be like this, scared to fall down.
I don't see a way
I could become whole
I hate what i've become
There is a darkness inside of me, eating on me from within.
I never thought i would be like this, scared of myself to burst.
The nights grow longer and longer. It's getting darker every day.
This time of year everything's dying.
This is the first day of the rest of my life
Yesterday was the last day of a life together with you
First time i saw you my heart skipped a beat.
I think i'm losing all that was me.
First time we held hands i shaked like a leaf.
All this time you wasted on me, i can't give it back
I think i'm losing what you liked about me.
What you liked about me.
First time i saw you
My heart skipped a beat
And for each day that goes we drift further
I think i'm losing what i used to be
I think i'm losing my personality
And for each day that goes we drift further
You should never see this side of me
I don't want you to see what i turned out to be
This is the last day i will look you in the eyes.
Tomorrow won't be the day you will see what i wished to be.
I can still see you on the shore
I keep drifting further from you
And i watch you as i'm floating
My heart skipped a beat
First time i held your hand,
I shaked like a leaf
It didn't have to come to this, if you had just leaved it alone
I never wanted you to see what i've kept inside of me
There is a darkness inside of me, eating on me from within.
I never thought i would be like this, scared to fall down.
I don't see a way
I could become whole
I hate what i've become
There is a darkness inside of me, eating on me from within.
I never thought i would be like this, scared of myself to burst.
The nights grow longer and longer. It's getting darker every day.
This time of year everything's dying.
This is the first day of the rest of my life
Yesterday was the last day of a life together with you
First time i saw you my heart skipped a beat.
I think i'm losing all that was me.
First time we held hands i shaked like a leaf.
All this time you wasted on me, i can't give it back
I think i'm losing what you liked about me.
What you liked about me.
First time i saw you
My heart skipped a beat
And for each day that goes we drift further
I think i'm losing what i used to be
I think i'm losing my personality
And for each day that goes we drift further
You should never see this side of me
I don't want you to see what i turned out to be
This is the last day i will look you in the eyes.
Tomorrow won't be the day you will see what i wished to be.
I can still see you on the shore
I keep drifting further from you
And i watch you as i'm floating
Lyrics submitted by NerdPunk
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