Outside

I used to dream every night,
now i never dream at all.
I hope it's cause i'm living everything I want.
I used to wake up in a bed between my mom,
and now I'm playing with this land before time toy from Pizza Hut
My dad works nights.
Putting on a stone face,
hes saving up so we can get our own place
in the projects man that sound fancy to me.
They call me fat nose my mom says "you handsome to me"
Mrs. Glover mam your son is so advance,
but he's acting up in class and keeps peeing in his pants.
but I just want to fit in,
but nobody was helping me out.
They talking hood shit and I aint know what that was about,
cause hood shit and black shit is super different
so I'm talking hood shit and cooling out like New Edition.
My mom and dad wouldn't listen.
They left the Bronx so i wouldn't be that,
all their friends in NY deal crack.
It's weird you'd think they'd be proud of him,
but when you leave the hood they think that you look down on them.
The truth is we still struggle on a different plain
seven dollars an hour WIC vouchers it's all the same.
Facebook messaging hoping that can patch up shit,
but all they get now is "can your son read this script?"
There's a world we can visit if we go outside,
we can follow the road.
There's a world we can visit if we go outside,
no one knows.
Dad lost his job, mama worked at Ms. Winters,
gun pulled in her face she still made dinner.
Donald watch the meter so they don't turn the lights off.
working 2 jobs so I can get into that white school,
and I hate it there they all make fun of my cloths and wanna touch my hair.
My uncle on that stuff got my grandma shook,
drug dealers roughed him up and stole his address book.
Hes supposed to pay them back,
he owe um money but his bank account is 0 so my mama made us sleep with Phillips Heads under the pillow.
Like that would do something,
but she got 6 kids shes got to do something.
She don't want me in no lifestyle like my cousin,
and he mad cause his father aint around.
He looking at me now like "why you so fucking lucky?"
I had a father too, but he aint around so i'mma take it out on you.
We used to say "I love you", now we only think that shit.
It feels weird, like you're the person I took sink baths with.
Street took you over I want my cousin back,
the worlds saying what you are because you're young and black.
Don't believe um you're still that kid who kept the older boys from teasing,
for some reason.