Every Single Night

some have said "you are your own worst enemy". I think this song is an acknowledgment of that. our minds sometimes try to sabotage us and with fiona it is not at all different. every single night she fights the thoughts and feelings that come up and try to bring her down, feelings of depression, of loneliness, anything that's real and human. the eternal battle between what we are and what we want to be. the eternal frustration and the sensation that we just might explode with all these feelings. we all feel it, it's all there.

what I love the most about this song is that in the end she realizes that frailty is actually her biggest strength: "My hearts made of parts of all thats around me/And thats why the devil just cant get around me" - she is moved by love and that love will keep her safe from harm. that's why every single fight is alright.

fiona apple has been my favorite artist for years. but never has she been so close to what I feel. thank you for coming back!

No song has ever even come close to what's going on inside me like this one does. The constant anxiety, the overwhelming collision of feelings, the noise in my head that won't go away. I hate it. I love it. But above all, I wish I could bottle it up and create something amazing out of it like Fiona can.

I don't understand how someone can be such a ridiculously good writer. And it's not just that...it's the way she uses her voice, the rhythm of her playing, just everything combining to make her probably my favorite artist of all time.

I know this all sounds really fangirly and over-exaggerated, but at this moment in time, I'm in complete fucking irrational awe. I wish I was born with a voice like hers so I could bring to life the songs I write...but they probably don't even compare anyways :/ thanks for being a dream crusher Fiona Apple...still love you <3

I have always been able to relate to Fiona's words & these lyrics are no exception. My personal brain-fight results in insomnia.

Initially, I misheard the lyric as "I just wanna be everything", which I also related to & thought fit the song, but of course the actual lyric makes sense, too.

But anyway, I agree with qiuliadm's interpretation - couldn't have said it any better.

These are the lyrics from her website (http://www.fiona-apple.com/)

Every single night I endure the flight Of little wings of white flame Butterflies in my brain These ideas of mine percolate the mind Trickle down the spine Swarm the belly, swelling to a blaze

That's where the pain comes in Like a second skeleton Trying to fit beneath the skin I cant fit the feelings in

Every single nights a light With my brain

What'd I say to her Why'd I say it to her What does she think of me That I'm not what I ought to be That I'm what I try not to be It's got to be somebody else's fault I can't get caught

If what I am is what I am Cause I does what I does Then brother get back cause my breast gonna bust open The rib is the shell and the heart is the yolk And I just made a meal for us both to choke on

Every single nights a fight With my brain

I just wanna feel everything x3

So I'm gonna try to be still now Gonna renounce the mill a little while And if we had a double king size bed We could move in it and id soon forget

That what I am is what I am Cause does what I does And maybe I'd relax let my breast just bust open My hearts made of parts of all that surrounds around me And that's why the devil just can't get around me

Every single nights alright Every single nights a fight Every single fights alright With my brain

I just wanna feel everything

I think this song is a trip into her brain. Fiona's telling us how her brain works, and how it doesn't let her live\sleep. She thinks too much, and it causes her pain.

This song is about someone with an eating disorder having late night food cravings.

Its not a fad for me to love her. I've loved her and appreciated her since I first heard her. I do believe she's the greatest lyricist/singer ever. No hyperbole. This is a feeling which has endured for decades. She's a poet and bursting with creativity.

I always feel grateful when she shares her talent, pain and introspection with us.

It's a pleasure reading all of the insight of the commenters here.

just wanted to say I loved the song and the crazy video right away...but when I read the lyrics it hit me like an Ironic ton a bricks...then when I read your post I had to agree but mostly...however you should give yourself a little more credit for your own writing :) @AQUARIUS121

The song is about her struggle with OCD. One of my compulsions was always to touch certain things and it never felt like you had completed the task because there were more compulsions/things to touch. "I just want to feel everything."

Love this song and the video. I think we all could analyze this song on every single line cause of how good it is. For me I relate to it as my insomnia problems with sleeping cause of my mind. Like i could be physically tired but mentally my mind is still going like the energizer bunny. And its stuff like this song like the lyrics of what'd i say to her, why'd i say it to her, what does she think of me? That im not what i ought to be" part i can relate to cause i got depression and anixiety and so i analyze what people say but also i feel like sometimes i can't read social cues or read the air of a room and so make mistakes socially that I'll remember and think of in the night like ugh i was so stupid or why did i do that!