Vanessa's Song

I will play til my fingers bleed
and you told me something I don't want to believe
Now I'm lost and I'm cold
and I wish that I could laugh about it
All the way from California
You're coming home but I think I should warn you
I'm scared to make love
And I wish that I could say I was lying
If I'm not in the sauce, I get lost
I end up somewhere crying
And I guess it's all the same to you
I know we'll do what we have to do
I couldn't surrender hope if I tried
Somewhere I made up my mind
And you make me sad, you make me kind
And I'm sorry if I wasted all your time
Saturday I sent your letter
I got it out and I know I should feel better
But I know that you're hurt
And I know you want to be on your own
How many times does it take to lose you?
I'm not afraid but I know what you've been through
And now that I'm bound, I'm around
But baby I should be home
And I guess it's all the same to you
I know we'll do what we have to do
I couldn't surrender hope if I tried
Somewhere I made up my mind
And you make me sad, you make me kind
And I'm sorry if I wasted all your time
Holding onto my inhibitions
Slowing down, I curb my drinking
It's hard to get rest
But I guess I know what you're going to say
All the places that I've been to
There are time when I think that I need you
But I doubt that you're still holding on
with a dream of a better day
If I'm not at peace on my own,
How am I going to love you anyway?
And I guess it's all the same to you
I know we did what we had to do
And I still haven't given up hope of a new revelation
But I wish you more than me, my friend
So here's until we meet again
I'm sorry that I was not very kind
I'm sorry that I can't make up my mind
I'm sorry I wasted all your time