There and Back Again

I live by the ocean but I don't feel free
And I've got a problem, but the problem is me
I work for the better and I will be kind
I used to hate myself but I have changed my mind
Now I hide my face because I'm ashamed
And I shut my mouth but I'm still the same
I look towards the future and see different men
but I won't decided based on the ones that I have been
I think I'll be alright
Yeah I think you're doing fine
Now I've been afraid my heart's gone cold
And I've got to realize nothing here's going to save my soul
And I don't have money but I do alright
I still get lonely, but I feel fine
[And you've got money and you do alright
And I've got Jesus and I feel fine]
Am I that far away?
I think you'll be okay
If I move to Chicago, will I change my ways?
Well I ??? and I do not feel safe
Well I hear the city calling me
And I need to make myself believe that I am free
I think I'll be alright
Yeah I think you're doing fine
I can't seem to face the fact that I might change my mind
I have faith in you, don't hurt yourself
I do it all the time
Now I preach forgiveness like it's what I deserve
And I need a symptom like I need a cure
A safe for my pocket, safe for my face
I'm sick of my music, I'm sick of my taste
Think I'll be alright
Yeah, I think you're doing fine
Don't worry yourself sick about fucking up
I do it all the time