So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
Tell me a story, Uncle Stak.
What you want me to tell you a story about?
About bad guys and stuff.
OK, that should be easy.
Check check
Now I was, once in the mix with some phony homies
Who turned they, backs on me when I needed em most
And even though they my enemies, I'm keepin' em close
Cause I can, either sink em or keep em afloat
A while the ship jumpers go searching for life preservers
I'm a stay here and try and repair the holes in my ship
Tighten the lose boards in the home that I built
I did this by myself, I didn't never need your help
Dudes are dirty, they'll try to fuck ya gal
Naw dog, you got it all wrong, I'm ya pal
Put it on his kids lives, lookin' you in the eye
Knowin' the whole time, he tellin' a fuckin' lie
My go-to guy, I could depend on you
Only people I could get me were friends like you
I know everybody out there can relate to stak,
If they got stab wounds all up and down they back
I do it all by myself
I don't need nobody else
And I'm a do fine without your help
I'm a do it all by myself
Some people told me to talk to ya
Tell you don't go
I fucked up, but you should come home, though
I just couldn't fix my mouth to pronounce those syllables
While I was thinking: "Why postpone the inevitable?"
If you goin' leave me, go on leave me now
There you go, baby
Kick me while I'm down
Yeah I got some issues I need to figure out
But I know one thing without a doubt
I can do this alone
All on my own, I'm grown
I gotta keep on writin' songs
Get money
And maybe one day find somebody that really loves me
Stands beside me through anything
Loves my when it's sunny, the same as when it's raining
The life of Stak Mak ain't always entertaining
Would you love me if I was slanging grams on the track?
That's love and anything less than that, I'd rather be
All by myself
I don't need nobody else
And I'm a do fine without your help
I'm a do it all by myself, yeah
Some said I was a dreamer, others told me I was stupid
I've been described as difficult, some even called me foolish
I've always had such a passion for music
There was no tellin' me I wasn't destine to do this
I didn't get where I'm at by makin' excuses
Cryin' cause you didn't deal me no aces and deuces
I've had my heart broken and been stabbed in the back
Career endin' injuries that didn't stop Stak
Rhyme after rhyme
Time and time again
It ain't all shinin' and diamonds
A lot of time, a lot of grindin'
A lot of beers spill in my environment
I always felt so empty surrounded by people
Felt like it was just me, you know what I mean?
A lot of work went into makin' this happen
Without my people I couldn't have made it rappin'
Because I couldn't have done it
All by myself
I needed everybody else
Wouldn'ta got done without your help
I couldn'ta done it all by myself
What you want me to tell you a story about?
About bad guys and stuff.
OK, that should be easy.
Check check
Now I was, once in the mix with some phony homies
Who turned they, backs on me when I needed em most
And even though they my enemies, I'm keepin' em close
Cause I can, either sink em or keep em afloat
A while the ship jumpers go searching for life preservers
I'm a stay here and try and repair the holes in my ship
Tighten the lose boards in the home that I built
I did this by myself, I didn't never need your help
Dudes are dirty, they'll try to fuck ya gal
Naw dog, you got it all wrong, I'm ya pal
Put it on his kids lives, lookin' you in the eye
Knowin' the whole time, he tellin' a fuckin' lie
My go-to guy, I could depend on you
Only people I could get me were friends like you
I know everybody out there can relate to stak,
If they got stab wounds all up and down they back
I do it all by myself
I don't need nobody else
And I'm a do fine without your help
I'm a do it all by myself
Some people told me to talk to ya
Tell you don't go
I fucked up, but you should come home, though
I just couldn't fix my mouth to pronounce those syllables
While I was thinking: "Why postpone the inevitable?"
If you goin' leave me, go on leave me now
There you go, baby
Kick me while I'm down
Yeah I got some issues I need to figure out
But I know one thing without a doubt
I can do this alone
All on my own, I'm grown
I gotta keep on writin' songs
Get money
And maybe one day find somebody that really loves me
Stands beside me through anything
Loves my when it's sunny, the same as when it's raining
The life of Stak Mak ain't always entertaining
Would you love me if I was slanging grams on the track?
That's love and anything less than that, I'd rather be
All by myself
I don't need nobody else
And I'm a do fine without your help
I'm a do it all by myself, yeah
Some said I was a dreamer, others told me I was stupid
I've been described as difficult, some even called me foolish
I've always had such a passion for music
There was no tellin' me I wasn't destine to do this
I didn't get where I'm at by makin' excuses
Cryin' cause you didn't deal me no aces and deuces
I've had my heart broken and been stabbed in the back
Career endin' injuries that didn't stop Stak
Rhyme after rhyme
Time and time again
It ain't all shinin' and diamonds
A lot of time, a lot of grindin'
A lot of beers spill in my environment
I always felt so empty surrounded by people
Felt like it was just me, you know what I mean?
A lot of work went into makin' this happen
Without my people I couldn't have made it rappin'
Because I couldn't have done it
All by myself
I needed everybody else
Wouldn'ta got done without your help
I couldn'ta done it all by myself
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All by Myself Lyrics as written by William Lee Conley Broonzy
Lyrics © Wixen Music Publishing, Universal Music Publishing Group
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There's nothin' to interpret here. What makes Haystak special is his words are "what you see is what you get." Love the man.