Without Love

What's it like to be back again?
I noticed you're cold
I heard that you gave her your clothes
How you suffer such deference,
I don't care to know
There's no one to scold you, she's gone
But what would you say, even knowing it's wrong?
"Goodnight, and are we alright?"
All that I can hope for is something I've never known
I prophesize, I despise
The way you're wasting my time
Everything is wrong in my eyes,
Of course it shows
I prophesize, I despise
The way you go about it
Happy you found love / happy to go without it
And it's not the same today,
But it's not so different either,
And it's been said the truth should make you laugh,
With ours I do it all the time
And I wallow in the way
You fed me to the riptide,
And I said I loved it in the way a martyr loves to die
So explain to me how I'm alive,
And we don't talk at all these days?
And if I were to call, I'd say:
"Goodnight, and are we alright?"
All that I can hope for is something I've never known
I prophesize, I despise
The way you're wasting my time
Everything is wrong in my eyes,
Of course it shows
I prophesize, I despise
The way you go about it
Happy you found love / happy to go without it
And I know that I'm not great
At making myself known,
At least in the ways that matter,
Some bloodline pattern,
And who could ever have me,
Unlucky as they might be?
In a tepid lake, I float face down
And pray my skull to shatter
So explain to me how it's intact
But I don't have a brain to sink?
So I don't say a word, can't think
"Goodnight, and are we alright?"
All that I can hope for is something I've never known
I prophesize, I despise
The way you're wasting my time
Everything is wrong in my eyes,
Of course it shows
I prophesize, I despise
The way you go about it
Happy you found love / happy to go without it