Caught Between the Tigers

Waking up in a cold, empty room with these echoes haunting me
Forgotten dreams of yesterday tangled in some real hard times
I am not the man I used to be
It's just so damn heavy on me
On me, on me, on me
I am not gonna lie, sometimes I really miss those nights
Soaked in reckless thrill, just laying on back
Chilling, hanging with the friends inside of my head
I was so unhappy, not a thought in the world
Only emotional dread, blowing smoke
Now full of, full of, full of all this
Chaos, chaos, chaos, is the chaos in me
I cannot handle all of this attention
All of this attention
I am caught between shadows of what I've been
Life got all fucked up and now I'm clean
Feeling the weight of these feelings
Just like I am destined to be me or be free
I claim insanity, I claim insanity
I get lost in moments of the life I shed
Struggling, struggling, struggling is the chaos in me
I can't and always will have to believe
There is more to life than what is easy to see
Oh, it's never easy to see
I am a better man with a heavy heart
I have changed my ways but I am torn apart
Old desires swallow me whole
I am caught between shadows of what I've been
Life got all fucked up and now I'm clean
Feeling the weight of these feelings
Just like I am destined to be me or be free
I claim insanity, I claim insanity
I get lost in moments of the life I shed
Struggling with the chaos inside of me
Oh, I will do what I can
Do what I can do