Now The Rabbit Has The Gun

I found a letter this morning I wrote long ago
It was folded and tucked into an old envelope
In the back of a Bible that I haven't touched in years
Now I'm holding these pages that you'll never read
And it's sad even now you could never concede
That your leaving, your cheating was ever in your control
Well you got what you asked for you're all by yourself
And I've still got your picture face down on the shelf
I remember the days when we laughed and we cried
Before the spoils of love left you rotten inside
Now the love that you lost is the one thing you'll never find
Well they say every girl hits a quarter-life crisis
Decides what she wants and then changes her mind everyday
But for you there was a change in your heart too
I miss the way that you'd look at me just brown eyes to blue
Even after you wandered, even after I knew
I still loved you, you're the only thing I ever lived for
Now the poetic justice it's more than I need
How you're stuck in Columbus still making ends meet
And your best friends and boyfriends are using you up
Like a fountain of youth and there's never enough
They're all scared half to death to get old
Now you're in the same ruts going down the same road
And the life that you missed is the one thing you'll never know
Now I'm in California, the one place you dreamed
You could start a new life, a life without me
And I'm setting my roots down in your promised land
That you wanted so bad it slipped right through your hands
And I feel like I'm normal again
I'm finding it easier to smile, I don't have to pretend
There's a part of me that wants you to come
But there's far too much damage that can't be undone
And it's hard to believe
Now the rabbit has the gun