Go Slower

Flipping through the leaves of your teeth and absorbing every word. White noises coalesce with the sound of your mouth, or haven't you heard? I remember you and me sipping shitty ice rink coffee, listening to sinatra in the snow. I should've kept you like a secret in my brain. Now all I have is a one that got away.
You fucked me up, now I'm fucked up. I carry my weight with a whiskey crutch. What's so damn wrong with being with me? I went swimming with cement socks. I dressed like a ghost and I got a rock. Why can't I just be fuckin' happy?
4 whole months and I'm still alone. Don't even bother to plug in my damn phone. You're out with new friends and avoiding my calls. I'm looking up jersey liquor laws. I'm not an idiot. I know how this shit works. Got ten bucks in my pocket and nothing to offer you. I should've kept you like a secret in my brain. Now all I have is a one that got away.
You fucked me up, now I'm fucked up. I carry my weight with a whiskey crutch. What's so damn wrong with being with me? I went swimming with cement socks. I dressed like a ghost and I got a rock. Why can't I just be fuckin' happy?
How insulting- to be denied by someone who has nothing. How insulting- I'm so fuckin' tired of waking up as me.