Don't Exist

I remember when we were young,
And I showed signs of a promising love,
I could hear church bells ringing,
But they never rang for us because,
I could never learn to trust or commit,
So you wrote that you would carry,
All the love for the both of us,
At the time I thought this would be enough,
I'll just wallow in some dying lust,
I remember when I was insane,
When I thought people didn't change.
I thought we were making progress,
But your body language contradicts,
Your monologue of pretext so I'll admit,
I'm losing interest and my love was a pretense,
I'm tired of these failing attempts to balance myself,
Between what you want and the opinions of everyone else,
I keep rewinding progress. I know I'm a fiasco.
But it's not your fault, we were young and impressionable,
Though the man that you love doesn't love you at all,
He's still a good man.
I'm still a good man.
I guess.
Well I'll look at all the lonely people,
They say it's all my fault, that I'm alone because,
I'm tenacious and I do not care,
So I'll just ignore the lonely people,
To them I know I don't exist.
I'm losing all my best friends, we were all hypocrites. (repeat 7x)
I'm losing all my best friends,
I don't exist. (repeat 4x)