Road Side Memorial

drying blood between my teeth skull on fire fever speaks hotter water, endless thoughts getting sick and weak and getting off

all these so called friends who sell me out to meet their ends you're pathetic, judge yourself i don't want or need your fucking help

dying as the summer leaks drown myself in the kitchen sink i can't sleep, cause the shakes won't quit a self portrait painted in vomit

burn my wrists with cigarettes wash the blood out of my dress feeling cheap, feeling dull burn a road side memorial

"At the time I was living in a place that had lots of abandoned buildings around, it was quiet and peaceful and mostly beautiful.

Then one day some one erected this awful, garish memorial to some teenager who had died in a car wreck near my house and I had to look at this ugly yellow monstrosity every time I came home and it got to be incredibly irritating.

The song to me was always a response to a large group of people who claimed to have my best interests at heart, without actually knowing what my life was about. A rejection of bad advice I received trying to kick an addiction by people who had never experienced addiction.

It’s a common theme in life, the bored and the boring want to play director. The original ending lyric was “I’ve earned a road side memorial” which I should of kept. At the end of the rant that is the song I felt tacky and cheap and self abusive, and if I were to die that moment I’d of earned some awful, ugly store bought monument."

From his official Tumblr