I think much like another song “Anti-Matter” (that's also on the same album as this song), this one is also is inspired by a horrifying van crash the band experienced on Nov 3, 2022. This, much like the other track, sounds like it's an extension what they shared while huddled in the wreckage, as they helped frontman Garrett Russell stem the bleeding from his head wound while he was under the temporary effects of a concussion. The track speaks of where the mind goes at the most desperate & desolate of times, when it just about slips away to all but disconnect itself, and the aftermath.
caught in my life this time
i'll swear off future crimes
lighten my soul
and i'll give up everything
then kick the bite (?) the scream
--- --- home
i'll wing it back to front
i'll wing it front to back
i want to feel this again
just like the heart attack
i want to make it good
i want to make it pure
make it right
caught in my life this time
'cause i'm so hardwired
to be alone
and we were everything
no i'm just kidding
don't want to know
and my --- goes out to it
my limbs are inside out
this voice is in my head
it's like a --- shout
but i can't turn it off
but i can turn it down
i'll make it quiet
ooh ooh ahhhh
i want to know
if you're gonna be a restless soul
then you're gonna be so so tired
if you're gonna keep me up all night
then you better learn to --- this fire
if you're gonna be a restless soul
then you're gonna be so so tired
if you're gonna give up on this fight
then i'm gonna call you a liar
i'll swear off future crimes
lighten my soul
and i'll give up everything
then kick the bite (?) the scream
--- --- home
i'll wing it back to front
i'll wing it front to back
i want to feel this again
just like the heart attack
i want to make it good
i want to make it pure
make it right
caught in my life this time
'cause i'm so hardwired
to be alone
and we were everything
no i'm just kidding
don't want to know
and my --- goes out to it
my limbs are inside out
this voice is in my head
it's like a --- shout
but i can't turn it off
but i can turn it down
i'll make it quiet
ooh ooh ahhhh
i want to know
if you're gonna be a restless soul
then you're gonna be so so tired
if you're gonna keep me up all night
then you better learn to --- this fire
if you're gonna be a restless soul
then you're gonna be so so tired
if you're gonna give up on this fight
then i'm gonna call you a liar
Lyrics submitted by sorchah
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