So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
Cracks in the pavement underneath my shoe
I care less and less about and less about you
No one else around to look at me
So I can look at my shadow as much as I please
All the kicks that I can't compare to
Making friends like you're all supposed to
But you will never come close to how I feel
You will never come close to how I feel
Space around me where my soul can breathe
Off guard body that my mind can leave
Nothing else matters, I don't care what I'll miss
Company's okay, solitude is bliss
There's a party in my head
And no one is invited
And you will never come close to how I feel
You will never come close to how I feel
Movement doesn't flow
Quite like it does when I'm alone
I'll be the one who's free
You and all your friends can watch me
Today
Don't ask me how you're supposed to feel
You will never come close to how I feel
You will never come close to how I feel
You will never come close to how I feel
You will never come close to how I feel
I care less and less about and less about you
No one else around to look at me
So I can look at my shadow as much as I please
All the kicks that I can't compare to
Making friends like you're all supposed to
But you will never come close to how I feel
You will never come close to how I feel
Space around me where my soul can breathe
Off guard body that my mind can leave
Nothing else matters, I don't care what I'll miss
Company's okay, solitude is bliss
There's a party in my head
And no one is invited
And you will never come close to how I feel
You will never come close to how I feel
Movement doesn't flow
Quite like it does when I'm alone
I'll be the one who's free
You and all your friends can watch me
Today
Don't ask me how you're supposed to feel
You will never come close to how I feel
You will never come close to how I feel
You will never come close to how I feel
You will never come close to how I feel
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It's like a less dark version of Joy Division's "Isolation"