Illumination

And I really don’t think you know who you are
so I reach out my hand but you’ve fallen too far and you choke on the love that you
claim as your own but in darkness you still feel so alone
and I wonder when you’ll realize
all the frailties of your life
My soliloquy of decadent disarray
the bloody snow from the fallen angels that now surround me
the candlelight is burning
Will I ever get what I need
or am I destined to crawl below
The candlelight is burning
the candlelight has been burning for days
Break break break
these are the weapons I forge
from all the disgust that I hold deep in my heart
and I cannot escape it its digging deep and its paralyzing
you look so pitiful and useless here
7 days to realize just what you are
the silence is so deafening
And when you fall back down ill meet you
are you breathing?
So ill take it and ill squeeze it and ill shove it way deep down in my chest
ill never give it up for anything ill never give it up
you look so pitiful and useless here
Paranoid,
paralyzed,
all your faith lost inside
Devastate mesmerize
And on the day when I realized my own humanity I sat down on the sidewalk which ran along the streets which I have dwelled for so long
And although it was 2am the streetlights were illuminating so brightly I could’ve sworn it was just before the break of dawn
oh but of all the transgressions that make a man so defeated inside each moment lost in time
I dug my knuckles into the pavement
and the wind began to blow
7 days to realize just what you are
the silence is so deafening
So ill take it and ill squeeze it and ill shove it way deep down in my chest
ill never give it up for anything ill never give it up
you look so pitiful and useless here
All the love all the fear walk alone shed a tear you will know who you are on the edge of the earth I am meek we are strong sun reflects ambience broken hearts ruined dreams bound by what we conceive devastate mesmerize
no more pain no more lies you will know who you are on the edge of the earth candlelight burns away never thought id see the day finally you realized
And every thought that you have resemble the lies that you tell yourself
Delusionary and insolent your manifesting you every fear
Dwelling into your narcissistic state of mind
oh but the suffering will no longer behold you
all your love all your life
all your love all your life
all your love all your life
I am your deepest fear
infesting all you experience
searing vibrant within these walls
and that’s where ill stay forever