This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Jack says he loves the winter here
Cause these are days when everyone's as miserable as him
Josh says it smells like cheap beer and loathing here
It could be the van but it's probably just his breath
Max dropped out of college
He likes to say he finished
He's working back home with his dad
He and Kevin got matching tatoos of their initials
Three x's down their legs
Well I've got like minded dudes in Detroit or Vancouver
Newport, Boca, and Brum
I don't know where I am but I know where I came from
So everyone moved in with their girlfriends
In one bedroom apartments in the town that we grew up in
And all my friends are in bar bands
I don't know how it happened
I hope it pays the rent
And still there's some days
When I don't think that we'll ever see Dave again
Justin's working three jobs just to stay ahead
Spiro lied about his major
But it's working out for him
Nick and Richie got a place together by the train station
I spent twenty two years just wading through bullshit
Hey, it's worked so far
I don't know why I'm here, but I know who my friends are
So everyone moved in with their girlfriends
Who want better apartments in the town that we grew up in
And all my friends are in bar bands
I don't know how it happened
I hope it pays the rent
And still there's some days
When I don't think that we'll ever see Dave again
I'm not sad anymore
I'm just tired of this place
If this year would just end
I think we'd all be okay
We moved on again
We're not wasting way
Cause these are days when everyone's as miserable as him
Josh says it smells like cheap beer and loathing here
It could be the van but it's probably just his breath
Max dropped out of college
He likes to say he finished
He's working back home with his dad
He and Kevin got matching tatoos of their initials
Three x's down their legs
Well I've got like minded dudes in Detroit or Vancouver
Newport, Boca, and Brum
I don't know where I am but I know where I came from
So everyone moved in with their girlfriends
In one bedroom apartments in the town that we grew up in
And all my friends are in bar bands
I don't know how it happened
I hope it pays the rent
And still there's some days
When I don't think that we'll ever see Dave again
Justin's working three jobs just to stay ahead
Spiro lied about his major
But it's working out for him
Nick and Richie got a place together by the train station
I spent twenty two years just wading through bullshit
Hey, it's worked so far
I don't know why I'm here, but I know who my friends are
So everyone moved in with their girlfriends
Who want better apartments in the town that we grew up in
And all my friends are in bar bands
I don't know how it happened
I hope it pays the rent
And still there's some days
When I don't think that we'll ever see Dave again
I'm not sad anymore
I'm just tired of this place
If this year would just end
I think we'd all be okay
We moved on again
We're not wasting way
Lyrics submitted by eltroyo11
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