A Loaded Smile Lyrics
Inevitable withdrawal?
This is ok. Not my fav.
This is ok. Not my fav.
I think this song is about being in a certain type of relationship, and I'm having a hard time finding a way to describe it... But I've been in the exact same type before.
Basically, when he's with this man, he really /wants/ him. And he /wants/ to want him when they're not next to each other. He wants to make it work. But for some reason, it only feels empty for him, and he doesn't even care all that much. The way he talks about waiting for things to fall into place and how he needs more time makes me think he used to be in another relationship and make he still has a connection with them...? I think at the end, he's calling out for the man to do something--anything--to raise a spark in him, to give him a reason to stay. Adam/The singer is helplessly apathetic.
Anyway, the loaded smile. I think he means that when he smiles at his partner, it's not really entirely truthful because of all the problems that this song lays out. He's not being that upfront with the man, and so the smile is... loaded.
I absolutly adore this song. I can relate so much to it right now. It's about really wanting to want this guy, and maybe at one point being in love with him, but things are changing and he's finding it's all empty and meaningless now. But he still want's to hang on, even knowing that they probably won't make it and he's probably only making himself misrable.
I think it's about someone who likes another someone.
i think its about the parting of an idea or attitude that used to comprise him; but he has new ideas-like seeing the world through new lenses. these new lenses he is seeing the world makes it harder to relate to his partner. he smiles out of an epiphany about himself-like an ah-ha moment. but the glass is empty-cause there is no connection in the relationship anymore. and the rest of the lyrics have to do with coping withs new way of seeing-part of it having to give up his partner for someone he can relate to.
its a really sad song.