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What were all those dreams we shared
Those many years ago?
What were all those plans we made now
Left beside the road?
Behind us in the road
More than friends, I always pledged
Cause friends they come and go
People change, as does everything
I wanted to grow old
I just want to grow old
Slide up next to me
I'm just a human being
I will take the blame
But just the same
This is not me
You see?
Believe
I'm better than this
Don't leave me so cold
I'm buried beneath the stones
I just want to hold on
I know I'm worth your love
Enough
I don't think
There's such a thing
It's my fault now
Having caught a sickness in my bones
How it pains to leave you here
With the kids on your own
Just don't let me go
Help me see myself
Cause I can no longer tell
Looking out from the inside
Of the bottom of a well
It's hell
I yell
But no one hears before I disappear
Whisper in my ear
Give me something to echo
In my unknown future's ear
My dear
The end
Comes near
I'm here
But not much longer.
Those many years ago?
What were all those plans we made now
Left beside the road?
Behind us in the road
More than friends, I always pledged
Cause friends they come and go
People change, as does everything
I wanted to grow old
I just want to grow old
Slide up next to me
I'm just a human being
I will take the blame
But just the same
This is not me
You see?
Believe
I'm better than this
Don't leave me so cold
I'm buried beneath the stones
I just want to hold on
I know I'm worth your love
Enough
I don't think
There's such a thing
It's my fault now
Having caught a sickness in my bones
How it pains to leave you here
With the kids on your own
Just don't let me go
Help me see myself
Cause I can no longer tell
Looking out from the inside
Of the bottom of a well
It's hell
I yell
But no one hears before I disappear
Whisper in my ear
Give me something to echo
In my unknown future's ear
My dear
The end
Comes near
I'm here
But not much longer.
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I believe that this song is about a man who is dying.
What were all those dreams we shared Those many years ago? What were all those plans we made Now left beside the road? Behind us in the road -- This is a couple that has been together for awhile. He is looking back on their early years and reminiscent of all the dreams and plans they had for the future. He wants to know what happened to all the dreams that they had and believed in as a couple. He is thinking about all the plans that somehow got left behind as they "traveled" through life together.
More than friends I always pledged Cause friends they come and go -- He thinks as his wife and his relationship and more than friendship. He knows most friendships are fleeting, and recognizes that he has more than that with his wife.
People change as does everything I wanted to grow old Just want to grow old -- Another reference to the fact that this is a mature couple. He is different than the man he was when they first married. He wants to grow old with his wife and seems desperate, pleading to do so, the first indications that this man is ill.
Slide on next to me I’m just a human being I will take the blame But just the same This is not me You see Believe I’m better than this -- He is asking his wife to be with him. He is reminding her that he is human and susceptible to the faults of humanity. I personally think this may be an indication that the illness is changing who he is. Perhaps he is not handling it the way he or his wife think he should be. Maybe he is angrier or loses his temper and argues b/c of the stress, etc. He is saying that its not him, wants her to see that. He is better than what the illness has made him.
Don’t leave me so cold Or buried beneath the stones I just want to hold on And know I’m worth your love Enough I don’t think There’s such a thing -- He is asking her not to distance herself from him(another reason I think what I wrote above). He wants her love and to be worthy of it. However, he doubts that anyone is worthy of such love(since she is such an amazing woman).
It’s my fault, Now I been caught A sickness in my bones How it pains to leave you here With the kids on your own Just don’t let me go -- It never says what illness he may have, but perhaps he blames himself for it. I don't think that it was self inflicted. I think the blame is simply his thinking that someone has to be blamed(ie- I should have been stronger, etc). He knows that he is going to die, and the it hurts him to know that his wife with be left alone to raise their children. He pleads for her not to let him go.
Help me see myself Cause I can no longer tell Looking out from the inside of The bottom of a well It’s hell I yell But no one hears -- He is so lost in the illness, and it has changed him. He wants his wife to help him remember who he was before, he cannot even recognize himself anymore. He sees this illness differently from everyone else looking at him. He is trapped in a hell that no one can understand. He is screaming on the inside, but no hears him.
Before I disappear Whisper in my ear Give me something to echo In my unknown futures ear -- He wants his wife to say something comforting to him before he dies.
My dear The End Comes near I’m here But not much longer -- He is talking to his wife, telling her that death is coming. He is with her, but it will not be for much longer.
In my opinion this song is reflecting about how people who know they're getting Alzheimer's or Dementia feel... the line "I just want to hold on and know I'm worth your love, and I, don't think, there's such a thing" is showing the two sides of emotion, one knowing that it's true, the other not even knowing what love is.
Also, "Give me something to echo in my unknown future" could be seen as the person hoping that one last whisper will stay in their memory when everything else is forgotten.
That's how I see this song, it's an amazing song from an amazing band =)
Has anyone seen the film Revolutionary Road? Seriously, without ruining the film, watch it and then tell me if it does not sound as though this song is like a goodbye letter from Kate Winslet's character!!! its crazy and everything fits. Obviously, i don't think that is the meaning of the song but it really struck me listening to it a couple of days after seeing the film- any thoughts? - 'left beside the road' and also 'friends they come and go' which the neighbours seem to epitomise and the leaving you with the kids thing is right on.
Sorry to disagree with you guys, but the song is clearly about a terminally ill man dying and saying goodbye to the world and his loved ones...
maybe so. maybe it's written from the view of ed severson, eddie's real dad who died from MS.
i agree...it's clear. Even if, when he says "it's my fault..etc" it makes me thinking that it's about a prisoner sentenced to death. But it's more probable the story of the ill man. So sad, anyway
completely agree!
Eddies father died when Eddie was only young. He had a debilitating disease that ultimately resulting in him dying, can't recall what it was. Eddies mother and father got separated when he was young and when the father realized he was dying they decided to keep the fact that he was his father from Eddie, to protect him.
The song is about young love that resulted in a family with children ie Eddie. Then one of the parents dying and knowing they are going to have a slow death ie Eddies father.
It’s my fault, Now I been caught\nA sickness in my bones\n\nI dont think Eddie is talking about any disease in particular here. He wants people to relate on a non specific level. I feel that he\'s just trying to say that alot of people hide that they are ill. Sometimes for a very long time. But sooner or later the symptoms start to show, and you cannot hide them anymore. I did not get this until my own dad was diagnosed with cancer a few weeks ago. My dad hid his pain so well. Now I get what Eddie was saying.
Are poeple getting the feeling this is the last album from Pearl Jam?
This song is like, the final song a band would make, don't you think?
It's moving and backed with strings, emotive and rich.
'What were all those dreams we shared those many years ago, What were all those plans we made, now left beside the road. Behind us in the road.'
'I just want to grow old.'
'I'm here, but not much longer. '
Whatever they are getting at - I LOVE this song, and LOVE this album.
Definitely not their last. I feel like they'll go the Stones route, playing 'til they die. This won't be their last album. Here's a Matt Cameron quote from today's paper (9/20/09):<br /> <br /> "We're already talking about making the next record, and how stoked we are. And we're making it with Brendan obviously — although he doesn't know it yet." <br />
I feel like it's Pearl Jam coming to a realization, that everything they were/stood for before, really isn't them any longer. Who are to say who they are or should be? Maybe this song/album is them letting go of all preconceived notions of who they are suppose to be. Given, this album is quite different than their self-titled and even Riot Act. I kind of see it as, them being reborn. /drunk rant
Nice viewpoint, man. I agree, them being reborn and such. I think that's why they chose the name "Backspacer". It's a reset, a do-over.
its definitely about a rocky relationship between eddie vedder and his wife and how the rock star lifestyle can be hard and demanding. it sounds like she wants to leave him and he's begging her to come back so he can make it better
we don't even have the liner notes, yet, so who knows who wrote it. could be most of them, with wives and kids.
I thought this was co-written with Damien Echols, the member of West Memphis 3 sentenced to death? Army Reserve was co-written with him as well.
Vedder + Pearl Jam are pro freeing the West Memphis 3 as is anyone with half a brain in their head that's seen all the evidence. How they got convicted is anyones guess: zero physical evidence.
Read up on it on Wiki, it's a fucked up case - with the normal level of police ineptitude and corruption leading to them pinning it on the weird kids in the village.
has anyone else picked up on the 'hidden' vocal at the very end of this song. And by that I mean, how there's a 'breathe' (gasp) on the right speaker when Eddie sings (but not much longer)...
this song is beautiful.
Funny that I read this comment today because just today I noticed that same thing for the first time. It immediately reminded me of the movie Into the Wild (which I'm sure you know Eddie did the soundtrack for) when the kid dies at the end and they show him lying there in the bus and the last thing he does as hes dying is let out one last gasp for air. I just thought it was sort of eerie since that is how the kids life ends and, in this song, this is how the album ends. Whether or not this was planned like that its still a pretty cool connection I think.