Haunted

You may not get this one
Hell, I'm not even sure that I do
So perhaps I should explain my spiral
Of long winded short comings
Of checks and balancing acts
Of thrice failed attempts
Of unbound resistance to the way things should be
Of artful insight pertaining to avoidance
It's time, it's time to craft myself a new mask
And escape unseen from all of this
Fallen over just like the first time ages unwind
and past mistakes are tearing through my skin
letting out all the love I've tried so hard to keep in
You shine brighter than I
So unfettered by the lies we're told
Will I find the strength inside to carry on
Isn't it sweet? How the silence burns?
In anticipation of forced decision
And isn't it sweet? How our muscles burn?
When no one will listen
Will you listen?
Bending backwards just like the last time promises bind
And past mistakes are opening closed doors
Shedding light on everything I've tried so hard to ignore
A brief moment of inspiration
Wasted strings, to boost our motivation
My death will not be, consumption of this matters
I won't run away this time
You won't talk me down
I'm coming to terms with the lies you told
I've found strength inside myself to carry on