Crush

Down on love
I'm so tired, I've had enough
I always thought that it would get better.
Maimed and numb, I have been
Too wrong to feel,
I've died for this dream,
I can't stop living
I wanted to be your crush,
I wanted to be someone,
I wanted to win your heart
Framed you in memory
Hung you throughout countless dreams,
'Til the nightmare woke me up,
With the news that it's over
The seas so mad,
Anger beasts rages to drown my soul,
I fight to steer my trouble ship to safety
The wind, it quakes, oh how it groans with deafening blows,
The thief shows with envy, competes for the killing.
I thought I could be your crush,
I thought I could be someone,
I thought I could win your heart,
Nothing to take with me, not even the memories
Just the thought of what was gone,
And a crushed hope in what never was
I saw you there, with no dress,
Calling out, I reached as air
Stole your shape.
Illusions kill what is real,
What is sane, feeding hope
To the dying
I thought I could be your crush,
I thought I could be someone,
I thought I could win your heart,
Filled you with memory and showed you on every screen,
In a story about love, caught in a rerun of regret.