As Good As It Gets

Look at my life and
Tell me I'm happy
If you could do it with a straight face
Then you'd be lying
Cause theres this hole deep
Deep down inside me
And its been growing
Since the day I heard you screaming
This is the very first and last time
I doubt the choices that I'm making
I lost my head again
but I'm working hard just to turn a dime
Blow it all on drowning out my mind
This is a dead end situation
I need to find my way out
All my life
Has been a never ending nightmare
And at some point I left behind
Everything that I believed in
Or maybe this is as good as it gets
What if you've always been the problem
The root of the dysfunction I've been through
And I just keep standing by you side
Even though its killing me to
This is the very first and last time
I doubt the choices that I'm making
I lost my head again
but I'm working hard just to turn a dime
Blow it all on drowning out my mind
This is a dead end situation
I need to find my way out
All my life
Has been a never ending nightmare
And at some point I left behind
Everything that I believed in
Or maybe this is as good as it gets
All my life
Has been a never ending nightmare
And at some point I left behind
Everything that I believed in
Or maybe this is as good as it gets