I Hope You Know

There are some things I'd like to say before the saying's done
They've been on my mind the entire time that I've been on the run
I tried to play it off like it never bothered me
But now I'll never get the chance and now you'll never see
That even though I hated you almost all the time
I never wished for you to die, I always wished that you would climb
Above the circumstances and outweigh all the odds
And get to live the normal life you dreamt about so much
And I hope you know wherever you are
I'm sorry I wasn't there, from the bottom of my heart
I'm sorry that when you would call I'd shut my ringer off
I'm sorry I erased the mail you'd send to patch things up
But there's one fault of mine that I won't soon forget
And that was never being there when you were on the bed
I got the news in California, sick with what you had
I was right up in the hospital, pneumonia in my chest
I felt the pain that you had felt every day of your life
I regret all my selfishness and finally shed the light
And I hope you know wherever you are
I'm sorry I wasn't there, from the bottom of my heart