Why I'm Holding On

I don't know why
I have to be alone tonight
When I know you're not
It's not fair
I don't know why
Why I still believe in you
After all the lies
Why I still care
Why'm I holding on to you?
Why'm I holding on?
Could it be because you were my first love
Because you told me things I always dreamed of
And maybe how your hand fit perfectly in mine
Could it be the way that we first met
How you dropped your phone and I won't forget
When I picked it up and looked into your eyes
And I knew you would be mine
It's been so long
Still I can't get over you
I never like to hear the truth
Of what went wrong
I'm feeling down
Each and every single night
Yet in my head I try to fight
The truth that you're gone
Why'm I holding on to you?
Why'm I holding on?
Could it be because you were my first love
Because you told me things I always dreamed of
And maybe how your hand fit perfectly in mine
Could it be the way that we first met
How you dropped your phone and I won't forget
When I picked it up and looked into your eyes
All my friends
They tell me I can't hold onto the past
Sure it was good but it's no more
Sometimes some things don't last
Maybe it was good back then
But it's not good now
Could it be because you were my first love
Because you told me things I always dreamed of
And maybe how your hand fit perfectly in mine
How we talked on the phone till we fell asleep
You told me all the time you needed me
But when I needed you most
You were gone out of my life
How I wish that you were mine
Could it be that you were mine