(Thinking And Wondering) What I'm Gonna Do

I think this song is about depression and how a depressed person can sometimes be drawn to people who end up taking advantage of them.

"So would you take me for a ride And let me know I'm still alive"

It's saying "I want you to quicken me again, make me feel something." The up/down cycle of depression can be maddening, especially when you've been in a rut for a while, you'd give ANYTHING to feel something different, and that can end up blinding you to people who really don't have your best interests in mind.

"Oh, sometimes I wish I didn't Have an answer or a clue to anything All this wondering and this thinking and wondering And this thinking and wondering what I'm gonna do"

When in such a position, sometimes it can feel like ignorance is bliss. "If only I didn't know about people what I know now, I might be able to give people the benefit of doubt, and still have hope for a positive relationship."

"So many reasons to believe, yeah I am so easily deceived, oh"

You WANT to open up. You really really do, because the loneliness only makes the depression worse, but... you also are now super cautious about who your trust, sometimes TOO cautious, which only reinforces the loneliness, and makes the depression worse. It's a hard cycle to break out of.

Basically the entire song is about the push-pull of personal relationships while you're dealing with depression. You want to be around people so you're less lonely, but then someone comes along and abuses your trust, so you shut down, but that only makes you more lonely and depressed, so you reach out again, only to be disappointed again, then shut down again... and on and on.

All this leads to overthinking. "All this thinking and wondering what I'm gonna do."