Not At Home Lyrics
i have no instruments, no instruments
i'm using yours
i'm throwing pillows on the floor, on the floor
and when i'm home, i'm not at home
i'm having thoughts of driving in a storm
i was in a storm
i'd like to say i never was, never was
it wasn't real, now i can say it wasn't real
and when i'm home, i'm not at home
i'm crossing fingers i won't run into
run into you
I think this song is about being with someone, but no longer being in-love with that person. "I have no instruments, I'm using yours" - This is about being so drained and having no energy left in yourself to fight for the relationship. You're basically using up the energy that your partner has left. "and when I'm home, I'm not at home" - This is talking about how you can be with that person and be in the same room with them, but feeling completely detached like you're not even there. Your mind and your heart are a million miles away.
The song is about loving two people at once. One you are in love with one you love. 'I won't run into you'....they don't want to make that decision or be tempted. They are at home, but not at home Bc they are not with the person they are truly in love with and meant for. They are using THAT person's instruments. They thought they were in love but the old love shows them this 'home' and love is not real, meant to be, passionate 'in love'. Hence, why they don't want to run into the reminder that their current situation is not true happiness.
Or so I feel... =)