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"there's no place for me." a man of nowhere, a man of black heart from the dead end streets. "regret runs through me. i am no one, i am nothing, i am a man of defeat. what's left for me?" he thought of those open roads, his mother praying alone, that vagrant anthem and the field sung hymns, the cowardice forever following him. "what's left for me? the world has turned it's back on me. there's no place for me." a sullen walk to the chapel stairs. "regret runs through me." a hard pull on that white oak door to face up those fears. "what brings you here my son?" "i've been a horrible man. i killed my father, i killed my brother, i left my mother in your god's hands." "clasp your hands and count your sins. kneel at the pew." and so the sermon begins. "no judgment cast down this day, will set you free. you are forgiven my son, you are blessed and redeemed. you've found absolution here son, but only from me." "what's left for me?" a sullen walk to the steeple top to look over the city. he carves his name in that old brass bell, so when it rings he can hear it in hell. one last look to that western sky, one last wish he could have changed his life. "i ain't no wicked man." he let his fleet slip from under him. unwanted.
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I take this song to take place after "White Oak Doors" off of "Empty Nights & Sleepless Day". This song is told from the point of view of the younger brother who survives his confrontation with his brother and is now looking back at his life now that he's had such an intimate run in with death. He is walking away from train-track and finally realizes what a bad person he's become. He is beginning to regret the action he's taken ("I killed my father, I've killed my brother, I left my mother in your god's hands"), so he heads to a church to find absolution. He's told there (Either by a priest, God, or himself) that he's been forgiven, but he finds no comfort. He goes to the steeple and puts his name on the brass bell there before he leaves town forever.
So he ran away? Dang! I guess that explains the song's title ;) Thanks for the story.
actually no he's killing himself
Yeah he killed himself.<br /> "He let his feet slip out from under him"<br /> Splat.<br />
@Benel Germosen or atleast attempting to kill himself. I'm hoping Defeater makes it to 5 albums and returns to the younger brother's story.<br />