Not Your Lover

i think this song is about how he's with someone but thinks that it's about to end, like there's no real connection. and that through this relationship they've changed, changing the relationship.

I don't know if I quite interpret this song quite as bleakly as rudy 38, but I hear it as the story of two lovers. During wakefulness, our narrator has to contend with all the trappings of a relationship, wearing him down a bit, but his escape is blissful sleep.

Possibly drugged out a bit ("moon-wallkin cowboy") all he wants to do is sleep and like we all know, the sleep state lets us stop thinking about all our issues and problems and escape either to dreamland or to nothingness. Either way in sleep, he's not playing the role as her lover any more.

Doesn't mean that when he wakes up he won't want to be her lover, just that falling asleep is a few hours of lovely escape...

hello all,

hope you all had a good weekend. i did some stuff outside my comfort zone. literally. it was like mid 20s outside. and snowing. and in the distance, you'll see a poor little asian boy sniffling and crying and thinking, "wait a minute, my skin isn't so fried chicken in complexion anymore." soon, i'll be burnt tofu.

anyway, i must say, driving in the snow is FUN. i managed to pull off some crazy drifts in my rental subaru; and look all fresh and brand new with all my layers. i'm like a burrito. perhaps burnt tofu flavored.

well, today's song is quite awesome -- and blitzen trapper are 1 of the only 2 acts i look forward to seeing perform here in the D (the other being tokyo police club). i think today's song is about a person that feels trapped in a relationship -- maybe wishes to be with someone else, wishes to be a perfect mate or even to be a perfect lover. man, that's what scares me.

i was madly in love (is there any other way to be in love?) with a girl for a good 5 year chunk of my life. and i'm not going to take anything away from it but it was over long before it was over, you know what i'm saying? and hearing this song doesn't necessarily frighten or deter me; but it reminds me of how, next time, i want it to be pure and for the sake of love -- not stability or companionship, or even compatibility. just purely, madly, unexplainably "holy fuck i didn't expect this but hello, how bout i fix you a grilled cheese and some tomato soup?"

ok so harmony would be nice also, but maybe i'm too much of a hopeful romantic or watched too many movies with my pops growing up, or heard too many neil sedaka songs in my time, but it's the ones that come in unexpected, the ones that don't make sense, that always resonate with me.

chemistry, schemistry. i'm all about the primal rage pheromones, baby. t-bone steak with ketchup. so with today's song if you find yourself stuck, i don't know what to say, maybe getting married and having kids and stuff will make it all better. keep on climbing up that tree. but maybe, for the brave, listen to this a few times and sit on a rocking chair or something and maybe you'll be the one weilding the axe, ready to chop that shit down. swing with all your might.

love always,

sonnyred

yes, i said neil sedaka; i know it's intimidating