Obstacles

I'm tired of running away from obstacles in my way.
breaking me, making me fall, am i weak have i lost control?
making my goals seem so distant, making destiny out to be a dream.
i feel like i'm losing this battle, becoming a slave of my own sorrow.
oh lord help me.
it's not easy being.
lord give me a new life, new reason for living.
as i crawl on my hands and my knees, isn't this so pathetic of me?
so many think my life is sweet, but it's been sour grapes to me.
i wish others could walk in my shoes, and realize what i've been through.
next time you see a smile on my face,
look deep in my eyes and witness my pain.
oh lord help me.
it's not easy being.
lord give me a new life, new reason for living.
as i walk with my head down in shame to realize
and cannot continue this way.
must be bold, must be strong and be true,
cause this world is nothing but straight up cruel.
so i look at myself and i say,
i won't slip through cracks and i won't decay.
my faith has got to change, open my soul before all fades away.
oh lord help me.
it's not easy being.
lord give me a new life, new reason for living