Something Almost Brilliant Happened Last Night

Something almost brilliant happened last night
I can't believe how easy it seemed
Now in the morning - disbelief and trembling fingers;
After all, it must have been a dream…
Is this the start of something good, something golden?
I'm frightened and ecstatic at the thought.
If this goes wrong, I'm deeper - deeper in the throes of darkness
I won't escape the next time that I'm caught…
Meanwhile I'm just sitting at my window looking out
Hoping for a different view some day to come about
But where to go, and what to do? There is no answer here -
I dread that I'll be sitting here this very day next year…
Something almost brilliant happened last night
I can't believe how easy it seemed
Now in the morning - disbelief and trembling fingers
After all, it must have been a dream…
Meanwhile I'm just sitting at my window looking out
Hoping for a different view some day to come about
But where to go, and what to do? There is no answer here -
I dread that I'll be sitting here this very day next year…
Staring still, empty handed, lonely in my tired linen
A clockface is a memory of doom -
A cloud of sweatpeas has gone brown;
I picked them, then I watched them drown
Decay fills every corner of my room
There is no strength in reaching out
My head is filled with love and doubt…