So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
And if i had something to say to you I'd whisper it softly,
Kiss you on your rosey lips and never let you off me.
Shiver on your roof and see your face lit by starlight,
Hold you through the night and watch that Colorado sunrise.
I've got five fingers on each hand for every mistake that I've made,
'Cause my tongue is tied to tonsels and i need to shit and shave.
I'm a shade to pale for handsome and have habits I can't shake,
And if you try to take that from me well I'll never be the same.
Trainwreck that I am,
And I am what I am what I am what I am,
A trainwreck, that I am
And I am what I am what I am what I am,
A trainwreck.
And as long as it's okay with you I think I'll stay right here.
I got no where to go 'cause where to go is up to you, dear.
Happy as a clam I see the glimmer in your eyes.
Hold you through the night and watch that Colorado sunrise.
No car and never cared cared because I got no place to go.
But in a room missing a wall,
I couldn't pay a plant to grow
You can try and make this pretty, pick up all my dirty clothes.
And if you never really get me then I guess you'll never know the
Trainwreck that I am.
And I am what I am what I am what I am,
A trainwreck that I am.
And I am what I am what I am what I am,
A trainwreck.
I've got five fingers on each hand for every mistake that I've made.
'Cause my tongue is tied to tonsels and I need to shit and shave,
I'm a shade to pale for handsome and have habits I can't shake.
And if you try to take that from me well I wouldn't be the same.
Trainwreck that I am
And I am what I am what I am what I am,
(Colorado sunrise)
A trainwreck, that I am.
And I am what I am what I am what I am,
(Colorado sunrise)
A trainwreck, that I am.
(If I had something to say to you I'd whisper it softly)
And I am what I am what I am what I am,
(Kiss you on your rosey lips and never let you off me)
A trainwreck, that I am.
(Shiver on your roof see your face lit by starlight)
And I am what I am what I am what I am,
(Hold you through the night and watch that Colorado sunrise)
A trainwreck.
Kiss you on your rosey lips and never let you off me.
Shiver on your roof and see your face lit by starlight,
Hold you through the night and watch that Colorado sunrise.
I've got five fingers on each hand for every mistake that I've made,
'Cause my tongue is tied to tonsels and i need to shit and shave.
I'm a shade to pale for handsome and have habits I can't shake,
And if you try to take that from me well I'll never be the same.
Trainwreck that I am,
And I am what I am what I am what I am,
A trainwreck, that I am
And I am what I am what I am what I am,
A trainwreck.
And as long as it's okay with you I think I'll stay right here.
I got no where to go 'cause where to go is up to you, dear.
Happy as a clam I see the glimmer in your eyes.
Hold you through the night and watch that Colorado sunrise.
No car and never cared cared because I got no place to go.
But in a room missing a wall,
I couldn't pay a plant to grow
You can try and make this pretty, pick up all my dirty clothes.
And if you never really get me then I guess you'll never know the
Trainwreck that I am.
And I am what I am what I am what I am,
A trainwreck that I am.
And I am what I am what I am what I am,
A trainwreck.
I've got five fingers on each hand for every mistake that I've made.
'Cause my tongue is tied to tonsels and I need to shit and shave,
I'm a shade to pale for handsome and have habits I can't shake.
And if you try to take that from me well I wouldn't be the same.
Trainwreck that I am
And I am what I am what I am what I am,
(Colorado sunrise)
A trainwreck, that I am.
And I am what I am what I am what I am,
(Colorado sunrise)
A trainwreck, that I am.
(If I had something to say to you I'd whisper it softly)
And I am what I am what I am what I am,
(Kiss you on your rosey lips and never let you off me)
A trainwreck, that I am.
(Shiver on your roof see your face lit by starlight)
And I am what I am what I am what I am,
(Hold you through the night and watch that Colorado sunrise)
A trainwreck.
Lyrics submitted by mmmcakee
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This is a really cute song. It's probably my favorite by them, actually. I like the ability to be a little more soft. I downloaded it with the name "Colorado Sunshine", though, I'm not sure why it was like that?