So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
So many times
Said it was forever
Said our love would always be true
Something in my heart always knew
I'd be lying here beside you
On my own
On my own
On my own
So many promises never should be spoken
Now I know what loving you cost
Now we're up to talking divorce
And we weren't even married
On my own
Once again now
One more time
By myself
No one said it was easy
But it once was so easy
Well I believed, I believed in love
Now here I stand
I wonder why
I'm on my own
Why did it end this way
On my own
This wasn't how it was supposed to be
On my own
I wish that we could do it all again
So many times
I know I could have told you
Losing you it cut like a knife, hey
You walked out and there went my life
I don't want to live without you
On my own
This wasn't how it was supposed to end
On my own
I wish that we could do it all again
On my own
I never dreamed I'd spend one night alone
By myself
On my own, I've got to find where I belong again
On my own
I've got to learn how to be strong again
On my own
I never dreamed I'd spend one night alone
By myself by myself, by myself
I've got to find out what was mine again
On my own
My heart is saying that it's my time again
On my own
And I have faith that I will shine again
On my own
I (on my own) have faith (on my own) in me
Said it was forever
Said our love would always be true
Something in my heart always knew
I'd be lying here beside you
On my own
On my own
On my own
So many promises never should be spoken
Now I know what loving you cost
Now we're up to talking divorce
And we weren't even married
On my own
Once again now
One more time
By myself
No one said it was easy
But it once was so easy
Well I believed, I believed in love
Now here I stand
I wonder why
I'm on my own
Why did it end this way
On my own
This wasn't how it was supposed to be
On my own
I wish that we could do it all again
So many times
I know I could have told you
Losing you it cut like a knife, hey
You walked out and there went my life
I don't want to live without you
On my own
This wasn't how it was supposed to end
On my own
I wish that we could do it all again
On my own
I never dreamed I'd spend one night alone
By myself
On my own, I've got to find where I belong again
On my own
I've got to learn how to be strong again
On my own
I never dreamed I'd spend one night alone
By myself by myself, by myself
I've got to find out what was mine again
On my own
My heart is saying that it's my time again
On my own
And I have faith that I will shine again
On my own
I (on my own) have faith (on my own) in me
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I take this to be a song about a broken engagement. "said it was forever" "so many promises." There is a line that says that the couple in the song were NOT married, but "forever" doesn't sound like just socializing, so I assume the song is about an engagement
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