More Like Fiending

I've got this rage inside of me
I'm hiding it from you
A cool blue fire under my tongue in my shoe
I've got some power in my pockets and it's green
I'm running with my eyes shut
And trusting what I'm seeing
I am the one that you want when you can't have what you want
I am your safety, yeah
I front like I'm wide open but
You smirk right through me
So here I stand with a spray paint can in my left hand
I'll paint your picture
You had so much potential but now you're gettin' sicker and sicker
So why can't you see me inside this bathroom stall?
Oh, it ain't easy
Call me ambivalent
But it's more like fiending
So here we come
Better run better run better run boys
Like marbles they'd scatter
You sad you'd always have my back
But where were you when it fucking mattered
You said we'd rip shit up together
Burn things down and make a difference
But you lied, you lied
You're just afraid of your own strength, afraid of it
So why can't you see me inside this bathroom stall?
Oh, it ain't easy
Call me ambivalent
But it's more like fiending
I am not the girl you want
You are not a girl who take things lightly
I am not the girl you want
You are not a girl who take things lightly
So here I stand with a spray paint can in my left hand
The words are fading
You were so damn transparent that I
I guess I was just dreaming