Rainy Day Lament

@Benzine270 these aren't the correct or even the full lyrics. I too am watching House and the song played but it hit me for a different way. My boyfriend died 8 months ago 5 days after we moved in to our house and it all happened right in front of me. It was a shock. I found him after he'd been gone for hours. What I saw I can never unsee. He died of a heart attack in his sleep. We met in my freshman year of high school. I was 14 and I'm 44 now. He was a nonsmoker...

@Benzine270 these aren't the correct or even the full lyrics. I too am watching House and the song played but it hit me for a different way. My boyfriend died 8 months ago 5 days after we moved in to our house and it all happened right in front of me. It was a shock. I found him after he'd been gone for hours. What I saw I can never unsee. He died of a heart attack in his sleep. We met in my freshman year of high school. I was 14 and I'm 44 now. He was a nonsmoker nondrinker, no drugs, very active and physically fit. No signs (obvious) of any heart disease. But I have a ton of health issues due to doctor neglect in 2013. He was by my side for everything and he died of cholesterol. I have texts from those last days knowing in the matter of hours my world would be yanked from underneath me. I died with him that morning. What I can't take anymore is ppl saying "you're the strongest person I've ever met." The worst physical pain is NOTHING compared to this. Grief feels like physical pain. But no pain pill will bring him back. I refuse to get on antidepressants because they won't bring him back and then my already radiation damaged brain is addicted to a medication. No thanks! I'm DEVASTATED I'M DEPRESSED. I'm in a dark place but for a reason!! I still get angry with Derek because I feel he left me. I pray and sob and beg God to give him back to me. I talk to Derek to please choose me and come back. Sounds disturbing. I'm still in denial. I still haven't been to his mausoleum. I didn't go to his service.

Where do you go when your luck runs out Yeah, where do you go Where do you go now And where do you go when you feel like cryin Where do you go Where do you go now

Won't you come inside with me today You could stay inside with me today Can't you see it's going to rain

How do you feel when the lights go out How do you feel How do you feel alone And how do you feel when there's no one there On the other end of the phone

Won't come inside with me today You just stay inside with me today Can't you see the rain Yeah, can't you see it's going to rain Yeah, it's going to rain

And don't you want to get warm And you want to get dry And don't you want to stay Can't you see it's going to rain

So won't you come inside with me today cause I can see it's going to rain Yeah, it's going to rain Can't you see it's going to rain

Gotta get my head together Gotta get my thinkin straight Gotta keep my head from racin But it might be too late Well it might be too late

Cuz these demons in my head They just won't wait They just won't wait

I feel just like a failure Well maybe I am Say it and give you something better But I don't think I can Well I don't think I can

Cuz I got nothin else In my hands Yeah in my hands

All the things I'm feeling Maybe I don't want to say Maybe I'm just tired Or maybe I'm not brave Well, maybe I'm not brave

Well maybe I'm afraid I can't Maybe I'm afraid I can't

So come over here I don't want to be alone But if you're busy dear I'll see you later on I'll see you later