...And Only Then

The smallest breath that I could ever take
It's more than these mistakes
And though I never did turn icy blue
This was a color fit for you
You left me with a head full of dizzy thoughts
And a stomach filled with knots
And though it always breaks back down into this
It wasn't ever fit for you
Maybe if you ask me nicely
There's a chance that I might stay
Maybe you should listen closely
'Cause your words get in the way
There's nothin' to say
Oh, don't tell me that your heart aches
Tell me when it all breaks open
And then, and only then can we start again
And I don't want to heal like a plastered wall
So weak, not fixed at all
And even when I said don't tell me who
There was no one on your mind but you
Maybe if you ask me nicely,
There's a chance that I might stay,
Maybe you should listen closely,
'Cause your words get in the way,
There's nothin' to say.
Oh, don't tell me that your heart aches
Tell me when it all breaks open
And then, and only then can we start again
Don't go tellin' me that we'll see
Tell me that you'd kill for me
Darling and then
And only then can we start again