Would You Attempt To Do This?

Watching and waiting
Does anybody feel this feeling resounding and pounding behind my eyes?
Everyone's so beautiful
I've been rendered miserable by the feeling darkening my skies
Broken things and smoking wings
Angels surrounding everything
I'm caught up in this stupid game again
Spirits fly almost every night
Everything's in black and white
And I give into it everything I am
Oh! I really have to go
Even though I love you so
I hope that you will never know what I dream about
And you really don't know how I do
But here someday very soon
I'll make vocal what you couldn't figure out
I don't want anything more than the glow of your sweat-lined skin
I've worn my eye sockets sore watching you bared and writhing in my head again
I'm not ashamed to feel this way
I've dealt with it everyday for one year, five months, and change
I've felt it all
I'll improvise with hidden lies, paper cranes, and indirect eyes
But patience is the only one that I'll pull off
And I'll never confess in my life
Somewhere between black and white
I'll risk it only when I know that I can't die
And here is where I reveal my fear
It's never knowing you, my dear
Like your god never knows the answer why