This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I've been hanging around this girl and she wanted to date
I liked her just fine, but boy I'd love to fuck her
I met her at a party when the cops rode up
She asked to take me home so I hopped in her truck
We kicked up at the gravel on the way to her door
Wasn't five minutes 'til my clothes were on the floor
I've been hitting at the bottle since the sun went down
And I was willing for whomever was around
Anyways it's nice knowing there's a pretty girl
On the other end of all my long ended letters
And I scribbled and I scrabbled and I score from the road
It was getting pretty heavy so I proposed a plan
Said I'd like to try at being your girlfriend
She knew how to drink from the bottom of the shelf
She could make them laugh until they pissed themselves
I figured if we could settle for this drag of a town
If we could settle for friends who hang around
If we could settle for disappointment,
Then I think that we can learn to settle for this
She was a mess, and I was a mess
I thought it be a good idea to get wrecked together
But when I came home I was feeling much better
So I packed my shit and left
There was this boy that I found sweet
Sometimes I crawl under his covers late at night
We don't fuck, we barely speak
He just wraps me in his arms real tight
And when he breathes on the back of my neck,
When he brushes my skin against his
It feels good to know I've got my patience back
We've got pills to ease our pain
And we've got bodies to hush our loneliness
With enough of the two, I think we're gonna make it through all right
We can get naked together
Take dirty naps, whatever
Just as long as we suffer apart from one another
You can hold my hand but you can never hold my heart
We can lie to all our friends
Call in sick or whatever
Just as long as we suffer apart from one another
You can hold my hand but you can never hold my heart
I liked her just fine, but boy I'd love to fuck her
I met her at a party when the cops rode up
She asked to take me home so I hopped in her truck
We kicked up at the gravel on the way to her door
Wasn't five minutes 'til my clothes were on the floor
I've been hitting at the bottle since the sun went down
And I was willing for whomever was around
Anyways it's nice knowing there's a pretty girl
On the other end of all my long ended letters
And I scribbled and I scrabbled and I score from the road
It was getting pretty heavy so I proposed a plan
Said I'd like to try at being your girlfriend
She knew how to drink from the bottom of the shelf
She could make them laugh until they pissed themselves
I figured if we could settle for this drag of a town
If we could settle for friends who hang around
If we could settle for disappointment,
Then I think that we can learn to settle for this
She was a mess, and I was a mess
I thought it be a good idea to get wrecked together
But when I came home I was feeling much better
So I packed my shit and left
There was this boy that I found sweet
Sometimes I crawl under his covers late at night
We don't fuck, we barely speak
He just wraps me in his arms real tight
And when he breathes on the back of my neck,
When he brushes my skin against his
It feels good to know I've got my patience back
We've got pills to ease our pain
And we've got bodies to hush our loneliness
With enough of the two, I think we're gonna make it through all right
We can get naked together
Take dirty naps, whatever
Just as long as we suffer apart from one another
You can hold my hand but you can never hold my heart
We can lie to all our friends
Call in sick or whatever
Just as long as we suffer apart from one another
You can hold my hand but you can never hold my heart
Lyrics submitted by fuckart
Add your thoughts
Log in now to tell us what you think this song means.
Don’t have an account? Create an account with SongMeanings to post comments, submit lyrics, and more. It’s super easy, we promise!
More Featured Meanings
The Night We Met
Lord Huron
Lord Huron
Cajun Girl
Little Feat
Little Feat
Overall about difficult moments of disappointment and vulnerability. Having hope and longing, while remaining optimistic for the future. Encourages the belief that with each new morning there is a chance for things to improve.
The chorus offers a glimmer of optimism and a chance at a resolution and redemption in the future.
Captures the rollercoaster of emotions of feeling lost while loving someone who is not there for you, feeling let down and abandoned while waiting for a lover. Lost with no direction, "Now I'm up in the air with the rain in my hair, Nowhere to go, I can go anywhere"
The bridge shows signs of longing and a plea for companionship. The Lyrics express a desire for authentic connection and the importance of Loving someone just as they are. "Just in passing, I'm not asking. That you be anyone but you”
Mountain Song
Jane's Addiction
Jane's Addiction
Jane's Addiction vocalist Perry Farrell gives Adam Reader some heartfelt insight into Jane’s Addiction's hard rock manifesto "Mountain Song", which was the second single from their revolutionary album Nothing's Shocking. Mountain song was first recorded in 1986 and appeared on the soundtrack to the film Dudes starring Jon Cryer. The version on Nothing's Shocking was re-recorded in 1988.
"'Mountain Song' was actually about... I hate to say it but... drugs. Climbing this mountain and getting as high as you can, and then coming down that mountain," reveals Farrell. "What it feels to descend from the mountain top... not easy at all. The ascension is tough but exhilarating. Getting down is... it's a real bummer. Drugs is not for everybody obviously. For me, I wanted to experience the heights, and the lows come along with it."
"There's a part - 'Cash in now honey, cash in Miss Smith.' Miss Smith is my Mother; our last name was Smith. Cashing in when she cashed in her life. So... she decided that, to her... at that time, she was desperate. Life wasn't worth it for her, that was her opinion. Some people think, never take your life, and some people find that their life isn't worth living. She was in love with my Dad, and my Dad was not faithful to her, and it broke her heart. She was very desperate and she did something that I know she regrets."
Blue
Ed Sheeran
Ed Sheeran
“Blue” is a song about a love that is persisting in the discomfort of the person experiencing the emotion. Ed Sheeran reflects on love lost, and although he wishes his former partner find happiness, he cannot but admit his feelings are still very much there. He expresses the realization that he might never find another on this stringed instrumental by Aaron Dessner.
Page
Ed Sheeran
Ed Sheeran
There aren’t many things that’ll hurt more than giving love a chance against your better judgement only to have your heart crushed yet again. Ed Sheeran tells such a story on “Page.” On this track, he is devastated to have lost his lover and even more saddened by the feeling that he may never move on from this.
Absolutely amazing. Des Ark should stick with this sound cause this chick can write.
I agree. She's a really great writer. I wish I could find more of her music on YouTube, :(