This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Well, I guess by the blood stain of your lips
And the wander of your fingertips
I should prove true to my emptiness
And stay here
Well, I'm just a kid of ill repute
But the skin I wear is my only suit
And you, you're just a substitute
For the one that I hold dear
You know, you could be anyone
God forgive my tasteless tongue
I never should have been set free
I claw my eyes, I skin my face
Beg somehow to be replaced
That's how we deal with boys like me
Well, I guess for this world so sick with loss
And your service is so free of cost
I should climb down off my rugged cross
And lay with you
But you know, by now it's half past late
And I only came here for escape
You you're just my next mistake
Like me to you
You know, you could be anyone
God forgive your unborn sons
I hope they don't end up like me
I drag my mind through streets of shame
Lay myself forgive the game
That's how we deal with boys like me
But despite what you've been told
I once had a soul
Left somewhere behind
A former friend of mine
And I hate to speak so free
But you mean nothing to me
So if the street lights they shine bright
I?ll get home tonight
I guess by the dim light in your eyes
And that to you all things come as a surprise
I should set the steel trap of your thighs
And dive right in
But to you I'm just a confused child
Insecure or in denial
Go raise your robes, go have your trial
I?ll let you win
You know, I could be anyone
God forgive what I should've done
A thoughts enough to guilty be
Yes, I guess I made this bed
But I?ll take the sidewalk instead
That's how we deal with boys like me
But despite what you've been told
I once had a soul
Left somewhere behind
A former friend of mine
And I hate to sound so true
But I mean nothing to you
So, if the street lights they shine bright
I?ll be home tonight
And the wander of your fingertips
I should prove true to my emptiness
And stay here
Well, I'm just a kid of ill repute
But the skin I wear is my only suit
And you, you're just a substitute
For the one that I hold dear
You know, you could be anyone
God forgive my tasteless tongue
I never should have been set free
I claw my eyes, I skin my face
Beg somehow to be replaced
That's how we deal with boys like me
Well, I guess for this world so sick with loss
And your service is so free of cost
I should climb down off my rugged cross
And lay with you
But you know, by now it's half past late
And I only came here for escape
You you're just my next mistake
Like me to you
You know, you could be anyone
God forgive your unborn sons
I hope they don't end up like me
I drag my mind through streets of shame
Lay myself forgive the game
That's how we deal with boys like me
But despite what you've been told
I once had a soul
Left somewhere behind
A former friend of mine
And I hate to speak so free
But you mean nothing to me
So if the street lights they shine bright
I?ll get home tonight
I guess by the dim light in your eyes
And that to you all things come as a surprise
I should set the steel trap of your thighs
And dive right in
But to you I'm just a confused child
Insecure or in denial
Go raise your robes, go have your trial
I?ll let you win
You know, I could be anyone
God forgive what I should've done
A thoughts enough to guilty be
Yes, I guess I made this bed
But I?ll take the sidewalk instead
That's how we deal with boys like me
But despite what you've been told
I once had a soul
Left somewhere behind
A former friend of mine
And I hate to sound so true
But I mean nothing to you
So, if the street lights they shine bright
I?ll be home tonight
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the skin i wear is my only suit