Self Defeating Prophecy

endless voices
shattered thoughts that cloud my head
sleepless nights of agony
wretched and twitching in a pool of sweat
searching for the words to say
babble spills out of my mouth
staring into space
i didn't hear what you said
i wish i could explain what's wrong with me
why can't i think straight
i'm lost because i think too much
about...
misery of life
no esteem from prodding eyes
my confidence mistakes
scared to sleep or stay awake
lifetimes pass in a blink of an eye
i am dumbfucked
all my pride sucked
i fight to gain control
of what the future holds
but i'm fucking lost
because i think too much
about misery
of life no esteem from prodding eyes
my confidence mistakes
scared to sleep or stay awake
lifetimes pass in a blink of an eye
i am dumbfucked
all my pride sucked
nails dig into my head
tossing and turning in my bed
biting my lips
blood stained mouth
need something more to calm me down
will i end up dead
or can i digest it all this shit i'm fed
endured for so long
i am surprised that i've made it this far
in my lifetime
i watch people waste their lives away
it makes me sick
to think i could end up like them
but i won't