Ambien, arsenic
And make me a lesbian
Make me a something
So I can forget him
And get back to reading
And get back to sleep again
Ativan, marzipan
Anything, anything

CNN, TRL
Make me a vegetable
Show me the war
And remind me to hate them all
Shooting off nerves at each other
How could I deserve to be crying here
Under the covers

But I just want to make it through the night
I just want to feel like I'll survive
Everything is relative, that's right
You've never suffered a day in your life

Make me thirteen again
Mannequin, safety pins
Things were so simple then
No of this drawn-out selection
I made no distinction
I just hated one
BBC, history
Make me feel ugly

Something with Nazis
Would do the job perfectly
He's just a boy, what on earth am I thinking
The billions treasure each drop they are drinking
And I just want to make it through the night
I just want to know that I'll survive
Everything is relative, that's right
But you've never suffered a day in your life

Poor little rich girl
Playing piano
All of the practice
We think you'd have learned by now
Poor little rich girl
Playing piano
What good is practice
If you haven't learned by now
Poor little rich girl
Playing piano
What good is practice
If you haven't learned by now
Poor little rich girl
Playing piano
It is a big world
I think you'd have learned by now
There are no starving Chinese
In your bedroom
The finger that points
Is attached to your elbow
Poor little rich girl
Playing piano
It is a big world
I think you'd have learned by now
There are no starving Chinese
In your bedroom
The finger that points
Is attached to your elbow


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    I think this song is about feeling guilty about making music about personal turmoil when there's people who've had more turmoil (vegetable > Terry Schaivo, war > war in Iraq/any war) in their lives.

    There's a Regina Spektor reference in "Poor Little Rich Girl".

    sheela_lon August 08, 2007   Link
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    She played this song when i went to see her 3 weeks ago. it was beautiful; so personal the way she performed it. really have no idea as to the meaning, btu i'l take a stab...

    there's a few references to a man, and the line "make me a lesbian". so probably she is in the process of trying to get over someone.

    "make me feel ugly something with nazis would do the job perfectly" - also goes with that in a roundabout way i think. they are fantastic lyrics. arent all Amanda's?

    every other line, especially "how could i deserve to be crying here under the covers" - refers to the injustices taking place all over the world, and her feeling guilty for feeling sorry for herself.

    mixitupon January 04, 2008   Link
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    I am DYING to hear this song. I can't wait for WKAP in the fall.

    OHcomelyon January 16, 2008   Link
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    huh? there's an amanda palmer song taht i don't know about? how can this be? where cani hear this?

    tosachion September 22, 2008   Link
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    Where can I find a recording of this???

    OHcomelyon September 22, 2008   Link
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    I'm pretty sure it's "Ativan", not "our of van". Ativan is an anti-anxiety medication. It just makes a little more sense.

    saccharinescenton November 28, 2008   Link
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    Oops, that was supposed to say "out of van".

    saccharinescenton November 28, 2008   Link

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