How Could You?

Sometimes I try to realise that you are gone.
Sometimes I think that I'll never, go on alone.
An endless fight, to look normal, to be funny.
I can only paint deadly smiles on my poor face,
My poor face...
How could you leave us so suddenly?
How will we live?
How could you leave us so suddenly?
How will I live?
I'm so angry with you,
How could you
Hide your pain this way?
I'm so angry with myself,
How could I
Be so blind?
Every morning the same nightmare
Won't I wake up?
It's the worst pain I've ever felt:
You've given up, given up...
How could you leave us so suddenly?
How will we live?
How could you leave us so suddenly?
How will I live?
I'm so angry with you,
How could you
Hide your pain this way?
I'm so angry with myself,
How could I
Be so blind?
Because you hated life as life hated you
Like a nameless disease, like an aimless torture
I have searched for answers to explain your suicide
I've preferred the version of an impulsive act
But you knew all this time that you'd finally go
You've prepared your own death with a smile on your lips
Because you hated life as life hated you
Like a nameless disease, like an aimless torture
Because you hated life as life hated you
Like a nameless disease, like an aimless torture
We lost a friend
Part of ourselves
It will never be the same
Something has died
With you this day
We're the orphans of your smiles
How could you?