So this has been.my favorite song of OTEP's since it came out in 2004, and I always thought it was a song about a child's narrative of suffering in an abusive Christian home. But now that I am revisiting the lyrics, I am seeing something totally new.
This song could be gospel of John but from the perspective of Jesus.
Jesus was NOT having a good time up to and during the crucifixion. Everyone in the known world at the time looked to him with fear, admiration or disgust and he was constantly being asked questions. He spoke in "verses, prophesies and curses". He had made an enemy of the state, and believed the world was increasingly wicked and fallen from grace, or that he was in the "mouth of madness".
The spine of atlas is the structure that allows the titan to hold the world up. Jesus challenged the state and in doing so became a celebrated resistance figure. It also made him public enemy #1.
All of this happened simply because he was doing his thing, not because of any agenda he had or strategy.
And then he gets scourged (storm of thorns)
There are some plot holes here but I think it's an interesting interpretation.
Dirty little secret
Dirty little lies
Say your prayers and comb your hair
Save your soul tonight
Drift among the faithful
Bury your desires
Aberrations fill your head
You need a place to hide
And I am
Do you remember me?
The kid I used to be?
Do you remember me?
When your world comes crashing down
I want to be there
If God is looking down on me
I'm not Jesus
Jesus wasn't there
You confess it all away
But it's only shit to me
If God is looking down on me
I'm not Jesus
I will not forgive
No I won't
No I won't
I've thought you were a good man
I've thought you talked to God
You Hippocratic, messianic, child abusing, turned satanic
Do you remember me?
Do you remember me?
The kid I used to be?
Do you remember?
Do you remember?
When your own world comes undone
Let me be the one to say
(If God is looking down on me)
I'm not Jesus
You can't run away
And the innocence you spoil
Found a way to live
If God is looking down on me
I'm not Jesus
I will not forgive
I will not forgive
I won't be whatever you want to
I will not forgive
I won't be whatever you want to
Do you remember me?
The kid I used to be?
Not the same as I used to be
Oh, do you remember me?
No
When your world comes crashing down
I want to be there
If God is looking down on me
I'm not Jesus
Jesus wasn't there
You confess it all away
But it's only shit to me
If God is looking down on me
I'm not Jesus
I will not
I'm not Jesus
I will not forgive
Oh, I will not forgive, yeah yeah
No, I will not forgive
Dirty little lies
Say your prayers and comb your hair
Save your soul tonight
Drift among the faithful
Bury your desires
Aberrations fill your head
You need a place to hide
And I am
Do you remember me?
The kid I used to be?
Do you remember me?
When your world comes crashing down
I want to be there
If God is looking down on me
I'm not Jesus
Jesus wasn't there
You confess it all away
But it's only shit to me
If God is looking down on me
I'm not Jesus
I will not forgive
No I won't
No I won't
I've thought you were a good man
I've thought you talked to God
You Hippocratic, messianic, child abusing, turned satanic
Do you remember me?
Do you remember me?
The kid I used to be?
Do you remember?
Do you remember?
When your own world comes undone
Let me be the one to say
(If God is looking down on me)
I'm not Jesus
You can't run away
And the innocence you spoil
Found a way to live
If God is looking down on me
I'm not Jesus
I will not forgive
I will not forgive
I won't be whatever you want to
I will not forgive
I won't be whatever you want to
Do you remember me?
The kid I used to be?
Not the same as I used to be
Oh, do you remember me?
No
When your world comes crashing down
I want to be there
If God is looking down on me
I'm not Jesus
Jesus wasn't there
You confess it all away
But it's only shit to me
If God is looking down on me
I'm not Jesus
I will not
I'm not Jesus
I will not forgive
Oh, I will not forgive, yeah yeah
No, I will not forgive
Lyrics submitted by Street2k7, edited by psychenaut, blackrain282
I'm Not Jesus Lyrics as written by Eugene Lenardo Johnny Lee Andrews
Lyrics © BMG Rights Management, Hipgnosis Songs Group
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Child abuse.