Absorbing The Disarray

Return exhausted to the furthest corners of existence.
Contemplating the actions executed.
Still no reaction, no mental spark.
Nothing ignites, nothing triggers the soul.
The only awakening drug is mayhem and chaos. I reek of indifference.
Disillusioned by my perception, there’s no way back.
Spiralling down this horrid path with no return. Absorbing the disarray.
Morbid attraction consumes my sanity, as I’m feeding off the frenzy.
Red is all I see, black is all I feel. Dreams and thoughts turn against me.
They seek the devastation of my mind to free themselves.
The ignorance possessed by me gnaws at my humanity.
Oblivious to this fact, hatred plants it’s seed in me.
Inside I’m rotting, I’m slowly disappearing
As my madness is spreading like ripples on water.
Everlasting inner battle between sane and insane.
Co-existence is not an option
The eradication of one kills the other.
They churn and grind at eachother
Causing lethal friction to close prey.
The rotten core of my inner self, screams and spits at all living matter
Contradicts my own being.
Absorbing the disarray
Gone seems all hope of recovery.
I’m engulfed in a vile mental world