Cuckoo Cuckoo

After reading the comments from Have You Seen The Words?, I'm convinced this is about severe loss, and it all seems to add up to a miscarriage or death of a baby. If someone could confirm that Avey and his wife did indeed have such tragedy, I think it would confirm my thoughts. But that's sensitive information, so idk how I feel about prying into their private lives. Anywho, to start, "how I lost my boy" seems to show he lost his son. The next verse, "The King in I died, he kept floating past my eyes, singing his songs, life was good but death's all wrong" is the father lamenting how he was preparing mentally to take on fatherhood, but suddenly was stripped of his good song singing life by "death's all wrong". \

Next verse, "cant feel a thing, no heart flutters in late spring, you just drift and pray for sun-kissed golden days" shows us a numbed man starting to lose his libido, even in spring when everyone is doing it. All he and his wife can do is pray for better days, despite their drift.

And these lines are most convincing to me: "I can't hold what's in my hand Don't do any good to say this isn't what I planned." He never planned for a miscarriage, and he seems to be breaking down, unable to carry the weight that burdens him. "Little kids sliding down the steel park slide And little kids can't play with things that have died Sometimes all I want is is one favorite song. Two to three minutes doesn't seem that long." If only he had one moment with his child, he could have played with him, sung a song for him. And here I think the child is crying out: "Where's my mom I want to hold her tight. She's so far away from crowded nights. I'm going cuckoo cuckoo. We're all going cuckoo cuckoo." And the couple is deteriorating into craziness. Again, from the unborn's perspective "I said please stay You can see me, don't go away I can't see the landscape Please describe its amaranthine haze" The Father responds, "It's odd where I am They're people you're not like them They just look away for rain-quenched golden days" The dad is uncomfortable with the people around him trying to shrug the reality of what happened off into golden days, when really they are always surrounded by suffering. "And my tears quench five feet along" -father mourning "And I can scream but cannot yawn" -refers to both baby screaming but unable to yawn and sleep in life, and possibly also to the father's extreme frustration and inability to sleep. "And people gonna come and people gonna cry We just hope it's worth the age we die" -funeral and contemplating the age of death. "Don't try to erase what you have done Put your fingers in a mouth and kiss it if it wants" -not sure about these lines, seems to refer to denial of the tragedy and the deep desire for a child. "And where's my friend, I want to hold him tight he's so far away from mountain light" -father just wants his son to experience the world.

I've listened to this track for years, and never understood what was going on. But in light of all this, it is all the more moving. Granted, this is all theory, and could be completely off the mark. I have not looked too much into other songs around this time, but Did You See The Words? seems to correlate with this overall theory. It'd be nice to know if any other songs refer to this tragic loss.