Bittersweet You

Save your sweet calligraphy!
Did I sound foolish when I said we would love eternally?
Did I seem naive when I was happy only having you?
And was there passion?
in your heart when you said what you said?
And was there loathing?
for the one that only needed you?
Pernicious hypocrite, harmful facade
You lead me there, you left me there
Alone
Without sympathy, without regret
Your porcelain, your ivory
a lie
Did I sound harmless when I spoke of the things I dreamt to you?
Did I look stupid when I lay safely in your embrace?
And was there music?
Had you said what I had heard at all?
And was there beauty
in silencing the voice that sang for you?
Pernicious hypocrite, harmful facade
You lead me there, you left me there
Alone
Without sympathy, without regret
Your porcelain, your ivory
a lie
a shard, a stab, a knife edge in the back
a trace of you lingers in me that I can't taste, I can't dispel
and it flows through me, like poison through a vein,
without detection, without a name, and I know it's you... bittersweet you
Pernicious hypocrite, harmful facade
You lead me there, you left me there
Alone
Without sympathy, without regret
Your porcelain, your ivory
a lie