If I Ever Loved You

Baby, I was not the one
I guess you know that now
But I kept you real distracted for a while.
I look back and nothing much
Ever comes to mind
Sometimes I can picture half a smile
We were thick as thieves
Hung on each others sleeves
Kissing all the time
But if I ever loved you shouldn't I be crying
Shouldn't I be cracking up
And drinking all the time?
Yeah, if I ever loved you how come I feel alright
How come the nights are so easy
And the mornings look so bright?
I try to figure what has gone
I seem to look the same
Maybe there's a tightness around my eyes
Sometimes the evening comes
I think I miss someone
And then I realise
That if I ever loved you shouldn't I be crying
Shouldnt I be cracking up
And drinking all the time?
Yeah, if I ever loved you how come I feel alright
How come the nights are so easy
And the mornings look so bright?
Love it can make your world
Bring you alive
But I wasn't dead before
So baby, you ain't hard to survive.
Maybe I was not the one
But I had to try
And in the end there's no such thing
As wasted time
I was the interim
Between nothing-ness and him
So how is that a crime?
But if I ever loved you shouldn't I be crying?
Shouldn't I be cracking up and drinking all the time?
Yeah, if I ever loved you how come I feel alright?
How come the nights are so easy
And the mornings looks so bright?