All This Time

Won't you please tell me just where you're going?
I'm on edge with this uncertainty.
I know I have made it hard to get to know me,
It's terrifying, you may not like what you see
And I know that you would love to break me down,
But some things are just too hard to talk about:
And all this time I've been lying, been lying to you,
So afraid that you'd leave me if you knew the truth,
And all this time I've been trying to reach out to you,
And all this time I've been lying, where you going, where you going?
Please don't leave, I never meant to hurt you,
I'm just locked up in this solitary pain,
I learned young that keeping secrets is a virtue,
What happened to me, I can't bring myself to say
And I know that if I say it it is true,
But I'm scared that you would leave me if you knew
And all this time I've been lying, been lying to you,
So afraid that you'd leave me if you knew the truth
And all this time I've been trying to reach out to you,
And all this time I've been lying, where you going, where you going?
And as you leave I say a quiet prayer for mercy,
One more time, just turn around and look at me,
And as I pray you say you never would desert me,
"In fact come with me, I was just going out for groceries,
Just going out for groceries."
And the stars fade out the sky tonight,
And the dawn breaks and it spreads the light,
And I finally find all the light, all the light...
I wanna reach out, I wanna reach out to you
All this time, all this time