Once there lived

my life so new,
your eyes so red
you said to me then, i was more than a friend
and your life i now held in my hand
well time passed by
we've grown apart
and though i adored you, i couldn't afford to
let anyone into my heart
i preferred to be left in the dark,
as she shouted "I just can't take any more of this!"
i lifted my hand and i covered my face,
and i thought to myself "i agree"
i steadied my lip and i ordered her out
and her eyes told me what i had feared so long.
she cried cause she'd been promised
something i couldn't accomplish.
then my mind went back
to that night on the path
i know i've failed
more than once
you thought i was something
well something meant nothing
when you smiled with the gun in your mouth
yeah you smiled with the gun in your mouth
they all gave it, their best attempts
killed themselves just to figure out why
my heart set up walls that their words couldn't break
no matter how hard they might try
and i'm being seduced by the deepest abyss
now that i hate myself more than you do
my head's just above water
shed myself to keep from going under
cause i'm still back,
at that night on the path
my head's just above water
shed myself to keep from going under
cause i'm still back,
at that night on the path