Raspberries

There was a time that I thought that I'd died
The very next day I felt so alive
I decided not to keep living with fear
So odd a time after 16 years
The sunshine falls in my new home
Like everyone else I'm all alone
With all the back alleys of a life
Always the bridesmaid, never the bride
If you walk right up to me
Tell me you believe
That you really wanna fit in
'Cause sometimes I feel this way
Feel so far away
And when I was young, your bedroom was dark
Stared out in wonder at the outside park
But the voice in the corner would say to you
You won't escape from the teenage blues
So you walk right up to me
Gave those pills to me
Right as I (?) after slumber
And sometimes I feel this way
Feel so far away
Remember apple trees in the garden of our home
Remember walking down Wood Street
Frozen to the bone
Remember Shirley MacLaine in "Some Come Running"
Comes running back to you
All at once I feel sick inside
Swallow twice, here come blue skies
But you won't ever have liberty
Until you put this feeling in a dictionary
You walk right up to me
Tell me you believe
In the politics of passion
And sometimes I feel this way
I feel so strong all day
You've been living out your life
Through half-closed eyes
You've been living out your life
Through half-closed eyes
Dreaming of utopia
Did you ever, can we ever, will we ever
And the rain falls down in North London town
And our love is so strong
But we can go wrong
And it's great to be fucked up like me
The doctor gives you all your drugs for free
Just like raspberries
Just like raspberries